tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36067530178979072692024-03-13T12:51:13.364-07:00The Bad TwinAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11970519390589742291noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606753017897907269.post-65087019992596807162013-07-07T00:50:00.000-07:002013-07-07T00:50:47.518-07:00Arizona I'm so lonely. I'm 34 years old now and this is not where I imagined my life would be. I have so much family, so many acquaintances but I may as well be alone on this earth. No one knows and those that do have no understanding, its like being a leper . My kids accept me no matter what but you cant unload your burdens and thoughts on children. I think about death constantly but the guilt of the ones that would suffer hold me here. I've lost everything. I have legal problems I have to deal with that and it prevents me from running home to my sister the good twin. I thought I had found the love of my life and that he would stand by me and in the end he threw me out and kept everything I owned. Essentially I'm homeless now. I have nothing but the clothes I was allowed to take and a vehicle I can't really afford. I'm without a job and things aren't looking good. My ex-husband has allowed me to stay but not for long. I have to make something happen soon. I've borrowed money from my father, something I haven't done since I was still a teenager and my this guy I thought loved me isn't responding to my please to return my furniture and my belongings. what do I do? where do I go? Arizona isn't very friendly. I miss home. I need help. I've never admitted that.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11970519390589742291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606753017897907269.post-55117353758195821252013-07-05T21:56:00.000-07:002013-07-05T22:00:54.251-07:00Borderline Personality Disorder<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Tell me that you'll stay with me until one of us is dead, tell me how you love my heart but despise what's in my head. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia;">You think I want to live like this; afraid and so alone immersed in all this anger that I cannot even control? </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia;">My life is like a desert land where nothing lovely grows and rain is just a mere mirage like the love I'll never hold.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia;">How can I hold on when I myself let go; even when I try so hard to let my good side show. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia;">Sometimes I'm in heaven and everything is bright and then the monster is unleashed and my day is dark as night. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia;">I cannot bear this loneliness, the loss that I endure, why am I denied the right to be a happy soul? </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia;">Tell me that you'll be there, when I lose control, don't abandon me because you see; it's not really me at all.</span><br />
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